The very best things that can happen in life happen between a teacher and a disciple.
They occur on the highest level, and nothing can truly be said about those two.— Pilot Babaji (Kundalini)
It happened in the second week after I returned from India. I was walking home in the evening, and as I stepped off the bus, I could see the Sun preparing to finish its daily journey. I stopped and directed my gaze toward the sunset. I have often watched the sunset since childhood. For me, it is a special moment, because my own arrival into this world also happened when the Sun was preparing to cross to the other side and become hidden from the physical eyes.
I stood there, watching the sunset. In moments like this, something always switches on inside my mind. It happened this time as well, but I suddenly felt sadness—the Sun was about to leave, and I would not see it again until tomorrow. I felt this deeply and lived through these feelings. It reminded me of something. I understood: just as the Sun was about to close its doors and travel beyond the horizon until the next meeting, so too Guruji had departed from the ashram.
Then, looking deeper within myself, I realized that in truth I was missing myself, not the Sun. What I was really experiencing was the feeling of separation and parting from my own Self. I saw the Sun, I saw Guruji—but all of this was within me. The Sun, the Lord, Gurudev—all of this is within me. And wherever I am, all of this is always with me. I can also be where the Sun is always present, where the Guru no longer needs to go anywhere. This is within my power. All of this can be realized.
I once heard Babaji say these words:
“When I became your Guru, I became bound. But I want to be free. Your freedom is my freedom. This is waiting for you. Sadguru is waiting for you. He is waiting to dance, to laugh, to celebrate—because your realization is his dance, his freedom. Your Self is his Self.”
The Guru is the Sun that illuminates the path. The presence of a realized Guru in a person’s life is a great blessing, made possible through grace, good karma, and sincere intention. Yet the Guru is not the final destination. One should not try to make the Guru one’s possession, nor become a slave to the Guru. A true Guru will never allow love to turn into dependence and then into attachment. The bond between Guru and disciple does not break even after death. It is a beautiful relationship filled with Love that asks for nothing. Everything that must happen will happen at the right time—there is no need to force events. The Guru’s Love is vast and complete. His blessing and protection safeguard one from mistakes and dangers. One can always turn to the Guru, and he will surely help. But to truly meet the Guru, one must go to the inner Self, not to the place where he is physically present. A real meeting is possible only within. When the outer and the inner meet, we ourselves become the path we walk.
All of this I have come to know and understand through my own path, which I continue to walk. I move forward, and each new day is a movement that unfolds my life—a life of which my Guru will always be a witness. The time will come when no one will be able to stop the dance of freedom. Everything has been waiting for this for a very long time. And it can happen at any moment—even now. I understood this while being in the dark room: everything has already happened. It does not matter whether it is in the future or in the past—it has already happened. One only needs to wait for time to change the scenery. And this great waiting, too, we will celebrate, laugh, and dance.
